i'm kigs (it/nameself), i was born on november 29th in the middle of bumfuck nowhere, canada.

i'm a cryptid tranny freak with a love for the internet, internet culture, preservation, consoles, computers, coding, everything digital honestly, its beautiful. i find myself incredibly attached to my computer, i love her so dearly.

i also have a huge appreciation for art, animation, movies and music i could never understate the importance of all of these art forms especially music. shit makes the world go round and im always collecting new (old) shit whenveer i can! my favorite genres are IDM, EDM, illbient, triphop, downtempo, breakbeat, breakcore, hardcore, speedcore, electronic, experimental, ambient, i listen to just about everything unless specified really.

currently dabbling in self-hosting and web development too (duh), i love having something thats mine and something that corporate can't touch and warp beyond my comprehension. i'll most likely elaborate on these opinions in the future, but one thing is for the record: (i fucking hate the modern internet.) they have polluted and warped such a beautiful thing, and it's only going to get worse.

as for other miscellaneous things i'm passionate about, i love sciences, mathematics, history, astronomy, psychology, horror, true crime, weapons (more specifically rifles, berettas, and blunted objects), i also have a very? faint but developing interest in cars, more specifically car modification and some racing.

movie trivia time! my favorite movies (of all time) are: a clockwork orange (1971), pulp fiction (1994), the lost boys (1987), fight club (1999), american history x (1998), pink floyd: the wall (1982), electric dreams (1984), the jackass series (2002 - 2022): do you notice something? i definitely have a bias towards older films! and i'm not sorry about that fact either.

good ol' vidya: overwatch (sorry), team fortress 2, counter strike 2, subnautica 1, subnautica 2, viscera cleanup detail, war thunder, postal 1, postal 2, postal brain damaged, hotline miami, hotline miami 2: wrong number, doom 2016, littlebigplanet series

i can't exactly recall a lot of my childhood (a bunch of it is extremely blurry), i spent a lot of time just playing games on my playstation 3, watching canadian television (even the terrible cartoons, id say some of them were a guilty pleasure if im being honest i look back on a lot of shitty canadian cable super fondly.) scribbling on yellow paged notepad paper with scented off brand markers, and occasionally playing around on a shitty dell laptop (if i had to guess now it was probably a dell latitude E6400, released around 2008 but thats as far as my visual memory lets me remember.)

my initial exposure to the big thing in my life though: art, and (simultaneously) the concept of anthro characters was sonic. i fell in love with the archie comics specifically, i had a deep fondness for blaze the cat and tails respectively, that transferred into me wanting to draw shitty sonic fanart and then eventually i made my own fan character. it spiraled from there, her names toxic i don't use her a whole lot nowadays but i'll sometimes draw her from time to time. she's my baby, i owe her everything if i'm being honest for the creative i am today.

and then came my exposure to everything internet, i remember being handed this hand me down samsung galaxy s from my mother: (of course i had already had previous run ins from the internet given me being on the playstation 3 and it having internet connectivity), i used to use the internet browser so i could look at sonic fanart and the like and browse character ask blogs on deviantart and tumblr cause i loved reading peoples characterizations. but this was different, this was new for me. the galaxy s was single-handedly what kickstarted my deep love for everything digital, i found myself enamored by sonic flipnotes which translated over into being fixated on flipnote animation in general. then overtime that translated into finding newgrounds, (older) animation youtube, furry youtube, technology youtube (more specifically phone reviews, teardowns, etc), which later on turned into being super involved in the android modding scene in general when i was eventually handed better phones (lg nexus 4 you are my baby i love you and your blobmojis). during this time i was also introduced to my first social platform: google+ (running alongside my presence on littlebigplanet and the playstation 3, but i'll get into that separately as its different enough to warrant its own section) which was hellish to say the least but it was super fun, i look back fondly on the stupid shit i got up to and have plenty stories to share and some archived art and activities from that time period. and then after google+ came the great migration to instagram which has its own stories, everything from instagram is relatively streamline. i did branch out to discord, twitter, and other miscellaneous services at some point, and now im just here in regards to my internet exposure. there are other incidents in my exposure that will get their own categories (like the littlebigplanet one) due to significance down the line to prevent muddying.

i both love and hate what the playstation 3 represents in my life: it both represents the beginning of my tangible internet footprint, my acceleration on character design and development, and being a further kick-starter into my love of technology but also represents a lot of stupid menial shit that happened during that period too in my developmental years. but, if im not being facetious my life long love for this console begins with my step-fathers console that of which i still own today and still maintain, it will never be sold, wiped, or modded out of respect for all the memories i hold with it and what it represents. i used to watch him play everything from grand theft auto (san andreas, vice city, v) call of duty (multiple installments), nhl 2007, twisted metal, zen pinball, etc, and i loved every second of it. he also used the music visualizer tons, a bunch of kanye west, flo-rida, david guetta, the black eyed peas, n.e.r.d, and some more obscure shit like klaxons specifically gravity's rainbow - van she remix, one of the best songs ive heard to date and im actually listening to it whilst typing out this part! you should listen sometime. after seeing all of this and more, i wanted my own. a few years down the line and i had it, i started getting extremely invested in littlebigplanet (more over the 2nd game in the series had my fullest involvement, due to its extensive in game logic compared to the first installment and being the more central game between the main three. ask anyone in the community thats respectable and they will tell you littlebigplanet 2 was/is the best game in the series both for the communities culture and just general playability.) what started as me being a weird furry kid on the game, turned into me making in-game 2.5d models of my characters, roleplaying with my friends, and was my first jump into tweened animation. i made a disgusting amount of animation memes on the game, and if you know where to look and what to search for you could potentially see my origins! though the one caveat of this was the amount of drama that came along with such a thing, for some reason the littlebigplanet community felt like navigating highschool but amplified to the nth degree. despite that, i wouldn't trade any of those experiences for the world, they were extremely fundamental for my journey as a artist, designer and really just a nerd.

then came my attachment to music. this section is a little less rich as this was a more recent development (around 6 years ago i started becoming more serious, and more passionate about music) it first started off with discovering nasenbluten! an australian hardcore/breakbeat/speedcore project formed by aaron lubinski (xylocaine), david melo (disassembler), and mark newlands (mark n' overcast), i was absolutely floored with its revolutionary sounds compared to the music i was listening to previously, it broke me out of my comfort zone and i was left craving more. then i discovered delta 9, a chicago based hardcore/gabber/noise project headed by dave rodgers through a madness combat animation using the last track off of their album disco inferno: that fated track being mortified. i fell in love with the punchy, visceral sound that absolutely rattled my understanding of music further, i needed to find even more. this cycle continued through the years, from nasenbluten, delta 9, golden boy, kfc murder chicks, shitmat, lofficamcore, duran duran duran, knifehandchop, and more until my more recent stint: discovering ad noiseam records with cdatakill's no brakes on a fateful youtube recommendations pull. ad noiseam has become one of my most respected and beloved (independent) record labels, for introducing me to so many amazing artists like cdatakill, enduser, exillon, abelcain, lapsed, larvae, and hecate. but for mainly introducing me to cdatakill's valentine (2006), this album has become my top favorite album of all time and i've only found two albums that rival it, those two being neotropics la prochaine fois (2001) and 15 levels of magnification (1996). everything beyond this is notable, but not enough for me to write further about, if you're curious about my love of music just ask me and definitely ask me for recommendations i'll be glad to share my love.

and last, the unraveling of my identity and the understanding of what makes me, (me.) this parts gonna be a little messy like a lot of things in life, but i think i started questioning what the right way to exist was back in childhood: i never quite fit in with the stereotypical shit that was expected of me, which slowly turned into presenting myself with different names, pronouns, etc over the internet out of a clinical discomfort with my physical flesh. my list of names is long and ever evolving, i am never quite satiated with these things and always feel the need to change or question them to what fits for me at the time (or right now.) then from simple transgenderism i was wondering on if i was even human, what was i? i didnt feel comfortable enough being labelled human because to be human was too complicated and cruel, i didnt feel comfortable even being traditionally gendered. she/her felt like my skin was burning, they/them felt alienating, and he/him felt just right but... something was wrong still. oh thats right, you can be whatever you want and do whatever you want. i stopped giving a fuck about what identity was and its been the best thing ive ever done since, it/its? hell yeah, oh and i'm a dog (or honestly, whatever feels right) and you can't do ANYTHING about it. sometimes i feel like everything one day and nothing the next day, whats that? genderfluidity? i mean sure but not like that, labels cannot define my experience nor will they ever but. queer, transgender and intersex sound comfortable as a baseline with however many micro labels i want.

now we're here, i'm a freak who loves tinkering with computers, consoles, drawing, animating, music, movies, etc. and the list of what i do and love will most likely grow overtime, i'm always wanting to learn new shit and info hoard. knowledge is power, and power is cool. theres more, of course but i feel i have written enough here. thank you for coming by, and until we meet again: i love you!